Baby I’m anxious

As the due date draws closer and closer I feel this tightness in my chest, I think its anxiety and I think it’s not about to go away.

As my wife becomes more and more uncomfortable and the due date approaches I can’t help to feel anxious, a flood of emotions is ripping through me, soon we will meet our baby, and soon we will be parents. My job now is to try and keep her relaxed and calm, I don’t want her to stress about when the baby is coming. The easiest thing I can say at this moment in time is that the longer the baby stays in there the more developed she will be when she is born.

The truth is as a man I am feeling a flood of emotions myself, I can’t bare to be apart from my wife even for the shortest of moments. I am lucky my job allows me to work from home and whilst I am at home I feel relaxed knowing that my wife is ok.

I just loaded the ipod up with some music to take to the hospital, one of the Albums is “body&soul, music the balance your life”, I bought this during the early stages of pregnancy and she enjoys listing to it.

So for now its plenty of walks, hugs and massages, hopefully the little one will make an appearance soon…

Its just a waiting game

From the moment I found out that I was about to become a father to the moment I decided to write this blog... I've been waiting:

Waiting for the next scan
Waiting for the next kick
Waiting for the baby that will change my life forever

People that have had children always talk about life after having the baby but no one ever mentioned the long wait that they had to go through before. That nervous feeling that you get before your first scan, the emotions you feel before telling your loved ones and yet one thing’s for sure, we all have to go through the wait.

With only three weeks to go the waiting game has started to get intense, i now find myself:

Waiting for the day to go quick so that i can get home.
Waiting for the final deliveries
Waiting for my wife’s waters to break
Waiting for labour to start.

I know this round of waiting will soon be over, but I guess a lifetime of waiting awaits me now:

Waiting for the first word
Waiting for the first step
Waiting for the first tooth

Then as they get older

Waiting for them to come home
Waiting for them to pass their exams
Waiting for them to get a job.

The wait it seems is a part of our lives now forever.